This blog is about me. I have Aspergers; I am autistic.

About Me

I was diagnosed with Aspergers in August 2014, aged 41. Although I had heard of autism and Asperger’s syndrome I didn’t really have a clue what it meant to be autistic; I had the usual stereotypical ideas based on Rain Man, Forrest Gump and other media.

Then on New Year’s Eve 2013 I had an incident, which I subsequently learned was a meltdown, during an argument with my then partner. I ended up on the floor, thrashing about, banging my head repeatedly against the wall and floor.

I needed answers as to what had just happened to me, and through online research eventually discovered Aspergers. I took one of the online AQ tests and scored 46, I think. This lead to an appointment with my doctor, and eventually an assessment with my local NHS Mental Health team.

Since then I’ve been on a voyage of discovery learning about myself.

About this blog

I’d been threatening myself for  4 years that I would start a blog about how Aspergers has shaped my life, more to benefit myself than anyone else. I find it very therapeutic to write down how I feel; it helps me to come to terms with my thoughts.

So why have I finally gotten around to doing it? Well as I write this in April 2019 I have managed to screw my life up royally. I’ve managed to exit a relationship of 18 years, and also one of just 6 months, both on account of my condition, and I’m in a lot of turmoil right now, and blogging is going to help me to figure things out.

The goal of this blog is to describe to others what it is like living with Asperger’s Syndrome, and how it impacts on my daily life.

This blog is personal, and hopefully non-technical and non-medical; there are plenty of other sites that will go into the neurology of AS so there is no need to here.

I’m not going to identify anyone in my posts, myself included, because I’m going to be very frank and open about my life,  although I’m sure that anyone who knows me who reads this, will be able to work out who I am very easily.

So for this reason the important people in my life, my daughter, my ex of 18 years, and my more recent ex will be given pseudonyms.

Disclaimers

All material posted on this blog is my own, unless otherwise noted, however I grant everyone the right to use it in any way they want to. Please  acknowledge the source if you can.

Bear it in mind that this is just one person’s experience with autism, and isn’t necessarily representative of anyone else. This is just me trying to understand my condition; I’m no expert on anyone else.